Your pretty eyes, each morning,
find me in the dark.
And they glow, like headlights
illuminating the smile on my face.
The day I thought you left,
I cried in the front yard.
"You are my smile!
How do I last without my smile?"
But you were only asleep in my drawer.
I never call you by your name, you
Cutie, Crazy, Evil, Baby, Retard, Dumbass Cat.
But I knew your true name the second I met you.
I smiled, and said "Hello, Lily."
When it is time for sleep, you strike.
A flash of over-sharpened claws and teeth.
Yet you sleep when my eyes are open;
we're never in tune.
I left you for a week last month.
When I returned, you'd change
Thoughts flutter behind my eyes
in random patterns, like butterflies.
by mere chance, they show your face
and take me up & out of this place.
the past starts playing in my mind,
and everytime i find,
this smile in my heart.
(it's been there from the start.)
i'll tell you something that might be true:
i'm finding myself incredibly blue.
i want to write something for you
to prove that i just might miss you,
but you
are not looking my way.
and i can't find the right words to say.
i find myself thinking about it every day,
wondering if you're okay
when we're not okay,
and if we're better off that way.
and i find myself looking in reverse,
i always found hindsight to be a curse.
i've got internal bleeding without a nurse.
painting thoughts with "what ifs" often hurts.
but the voices around and in me say
what we had was never okay.
when everything was thrown away
like a newspaper pri
Mrs. Charles.
English class.
The teacher drones on,
"The repitition of a consonant sound"...
My attention is gone.
Muttering to the phone,
the appearance of a prune.
Bored eyes hit the clock;
they pray the bell rings soon.
With her lack of upper teeth, why
this teacher's quite the fool!
The lesson for today, kids:
I don't want to be in school.
Perfection.
A nine-letter lie.
We all know it's impossible,
So why do we try?
Mistake.
A seven-letter promise.
You always blamed me for them,
An attack at my confidence; you never miss.
Distance.
Eight letters, a sad thing.
Avoid this at all costs!
My heart jumps when you make my phone ring.
Happiness.
A necessity to life.
For some reason, when you experience it,
Your back gets hit with a knife.
Living.
We do it every day.
Everything'll be fine, don't you fret.
I've nothing left to say.
Do me a "favor",
take your lies,
shove them between my shoulder blades!
You'll never hear my cries.
Friendship is a rarity,
and, Honey, our's wasn't real.
a response from you would shock me!
You'll never know how I feel.
Every day your story changes,
everyone but you can see.
yet those silly people believe in you!
But you will never get to me.
Sitting on this couch.
Cozy, by the fire.
Hazy dreams behind closed lids
of the one that I admire.
Sitting in this desk.
A child's worst enemy: School.
Oh, teacher's voice, how you float over me.
Fate, you seem so... cruel.
Laying in the grass.
Eyes locked to the sky.
Escaping memories? Impossible.
Without the will to even cry.
Staring at this computer screen.
Sad little poems float in my mind.
Write them down, a minor relief.
I'm missing your comfort; falling behind.
Sitting in a room with them.
A 'smile' upon my face.
While they laugh and forget it all,
I feel so out of place.
So here I am, sitting on this couch.
The
I saw a little bird go by,
His eyes were glued to the sky.
Realizing my presence,
He remarked with a cry:
"I'd like to learn to fly!"
Such a strange, silly fellow,
With his feathers of yellow.
So I dropped to one knee,
With a fond "Hello".
His face made my mood quite mellow.
I promised to help him with this,
His wings and the sky would kiss.
He'd perch on my finger; 3... 2... 1...
He rose to the sky in pure bliss,
That happy creature I'm sure to miss.
I learned quite a lesson that day.
Even when skies are nothing but gray,
Life is worth living; you only get ONE chance.
So let the children laugh and play,
Every minute
Fingertips brush away stray hairs, arms are secure around her shoulders
He watches her, like her own dearest angel
While he sleeps on the other side of the world, his sleeping seconds belong to her
He wants her to claim him, sending living hints in his waking words
She puts to clues together but doubts their reality
Frustrated sighs in the sun and under the clouds
Their separate reasons are close to the same revelation
They are each other, connected by unseen fibers stretching
Threatening to snap them together
He draws the curve of her smile in his mind, the shine in her eyes
She tries to taste him around her, not quite failing nor
You say such pretty words;
Whispers in my night
like a lullaby hushing
a nightmarish future.
Woven fingers, through my own,
tethering me to this existance, to life.
Hearts beat in unison,
like the drum solo of our favorite song,
when your eyes find mine.
Careful, now, my dear.
Hold awareness over your shoulder,
should our end appear swiftly
by the hands of another.
We are forbidden.
Yet around you my heart is free of sorrow.
It wears a smile unmet by anything
but the one resting on your face:
A smile for me.
It's hard as hell to come up with new account names, especially when every single name you want is a dead account that hasn't been visited in 70+ weeks. Spring cleaning, anyone?
Anyway, some memories are too painful to visit and I'm sick of reminders, so I'm starting over. I was thinking about whether or not I'm gonna post it here and I decided I will. I don't care and nobody else really does, either. I'll re-watch some people and yaaaay.
TECHN0panda (https://www.deviantart.com/techn0panda) is me. Fear the 0.
:heart: It's been fun, being a Jessehfish.
Uninspiring by ways of artistic things, which sucks because I'm supposed to be working on a portfolio for an art school.
But still great regardless. :heart: